Sir Derek Jacobi’s answer to me on reading one’s own reviews
I have been busy working on getting my new showreel out of the door and doing 2 short films so far in 2014 but given we are already in February, I have not moved that much on my goals for this year. I have some big dreams for 2014 including getting a new fabulous acting agent who is both passionate and supportive of my career, doing lots of great acting projects, writing & filming my own web series this year plus ideas for a couple of new singing projects this year and all this ‘wanna’ activity in my brain is stopping me being all that productive on my own stuff.
I really want to get my web series idea from the tiny sketch I have already written to at least three episodes scripted and then getting a director and a small film crew to make it look great. As often happens with us creatives there is a build up of tension, of the need to move on our projects yet we almost stall at the beginning, we know the work ahead is going to hurt.
A large part of this internal resistance is fear: fear of whether it is any good, fear of what others may say, fear that it is a stupid idea. I went to an Actors Centre Q&A in January with Sir Derek Jacobi, the actor (I, Claudius, The King’s Speech, Gladiator and of course the Master in Dr Who!) who started off by saying how he has been dogged by good luck, indeed his autobiography is titled ‘As luck would have it’
He was a fabulous raconteur but the one story I knew I needed to share was when I asked him if he read his own reviews.
(Friends & long term readers of my Love Your Creativity blog will know I have a firm ‘no reading of reviews’ policy and actors, directors and writers in plays I am in often find this ‘interesting’, basically weird!. In some cases my ‘no review’ reading or repeating of reviews in my hearing has been declared by some as me coming from fear. Unfortunately for anyone who disagrees with me in future will get the response ‘well Sir Derek Jacobi told me…‘ Yes I may well become insufferable !!)
Anyway back to Sir Derek’s response to me 😉
‘I always used to read my reviews but then one night we were opening ‘Black Comedy’ by Peter Schaffer, I was with Maggie Smith and Albert Finney at Chichester. The play was not well known at the time and the audience loved it and gave us a standing ovation.
The next morning I had to be at Shepperton Studios very early as I was filming. Sir Laurence (Olivier) was sat there with all the papers in front of him and he said to me as I came in, ‘Derek, don’t read the papers.’
I did as I was told but did worriedly ask the other actors there on the film set if the reviews were bad. They said that they were good so I just got on with filming.
I didn’t read a review then for years until I was at the Barbican in Cyrano de Bergerac, playing Cyrano de Bergerac. The morning after the opening night, which had gone well, I was driving and a copy of The Times lay on the passenger seat, I knew there was a review in there, it was almost calling to me. Eventually I buckled and opened the paper, the review was by Irving Walsh and started..
‘Once in a decade an actor is born to play Cyrano de Bergerac. Derek Jacobi is not one of them.’
I haven’t read a review since.’
Sir Derek went on to list some of the reasons to not read reviews, all of which I have espoused myself: you only remember the bad ones and never the good ones, after a good review you go out on stage and try and act the review, after a bad one you still have to go on stage and do your work.
He mentioned again why he still wants to be in Corrie, (Coronation Street for non UK readers), it seems he is mentioning that a lot!
I mentioned Sir Derek’s words to a great friend of mine, the songwriter Victoria Horn who reminded me of this great saying
“Don’t read your press, weigh it.” — Andy Warhol.
So I am feeling re-energised and ready to get back out there, I have made an implicit agreement that work on my new comedy character will indeed commence on Monday.
So how are you doing with your New Years resolutions? I have been supporting mine with chapters of ‘The Willpower Instinct’ which is full of great facts & science about will power.
Three ways to strengthen your will power are meditation, physical exercise and plenty of sleep apparently, so I am aiming to do all three on a daily basis.
Let me know what you are aiming at this year 😉
I am aware I have mentioned two books in this post, I have been reading a lot recently to get my headspace moving forward. Although I found a book last night that has frightened me as to what I need to do to improve my productivity. If I can muster up the courage to follow through I will let you know 😉
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